Crash, crash, bang, bang — ouch, that was my thumb!
I’ve been pretty quiet on my blogs. But lots of hammering, and tussling, and designing has been going on. Let me just say that I’m going to have a couple of things to announce at the end of the week.
In a way, I find myself exasperated (though happy). I’ve mentioned in other posts how crazy I feel sometimes with the many things I love to do, and can’t figure out how to do them all in forms that make sense to me (and anyone else?), and then I went and created even more websites and blogs …! How was I ever going to tend to all these creations?
What’s happened is that I’ve surrendered–finally–to my nature. And in the process a few insights have dropped like gold nuggets into my hand, and I just understand how to move forward. Finally. On many fronts.
It’s like the entire village in me has finally stopped fussing and nay-saying and offering suggestions and criticisms (which did indeed need to be evaluated!), and they’ve unexpectedly reached consensus. A hush fills my mind, and all the parts of me are looking at each other, shrugging and saying silently — okay, let’s just get on with it.
More exists to the story than that. Or maybe not. Maybe my story is just a simple one really of just trying to find the right form, the most authentic expression, the most rooted, strong, resiliant place from which to step. Maybe we just have to tussle with our demons and have endless meetings with our clever selves, and scribble ideas and revise them, and then discover that we’re writing down the same things again and again.
Maybe at some place we (hopefully) all realize we’re doing that, writing down the same things over and over, and then something shifts, or we shift, just step into another place in the room–or maybe out the front door and into the open air. We just breathe and know things from a different place of knowing. A shake of our shoulders and we know it’s time to set thinking — of that kind — aside and start doing what we knew all along we were going to do.
The feel is different though. And maybe we really couldn’t have done it back then. Certainly not in this way.
We finally believe in our lives. In the particular sweep or flourish of our story.
Anyway, it’s time to have fun.
Are you in a place where you can have fun? Is there a place you’ve been spinning in your life, that has felt stuck, stuck, stuck? Maybe it’s time. Maybe there’s a way open right now, to just stepping out that door and doing/being what you knew all along you are meant to do and be.
What pops into your mind as you read those words? Quick, catch that thought, no matter how bemusing and strange or absurd it may seem! Cup it in your hands and take a good, kind look at it. What do you see? What do you feel? What do you know?
I do invite your musings, your observations. I invite … You. Please scriven boldly below!